Zen

As a dancer, I like to think that I fall into the category of 'athlete'. However, I doubt that athletes lie around and wait as much as I do. So maybe in this moment in time, I do not fall into that aforementioned category. I hope that I do get fit during the holidays, because it's not going to happen at work as far as I can see this season.

Then there is the other side; the dancer as an 'artist'. I relate better to this, and I would say I am more motivated on this side. Unfortunately I am not my own boss and I can only contribute so much of my artistry to someone else's vision. Especially when others work in a way that is so old fashioned and without a sense of direction or motivation. I think some people need to know when to stop. 

I am slightly frustrated because neither of these parts of my job are satisfying. I was feeling the stress, but I have given in to my Zen/Meditative self, and have decided to let the last month float by unnoticed to hopefully find inspiration as I walk across Portugal with S.